Impossible

                      I used to think there was only one kind of heartbreak and that was the kind I was used to feeling. The kind that caused an ache inside of me and caused me to weep for hours, wishing the pain would go away. I never knew I could wish such pain on myself again. Because it hurts, this new kind of heartbreak hurts in ways I never knew could hurt. I feel numb and broken. I feel nothing and I feel everything, I feel useless and irrelevant. I've been through three frikkin break-ups, this wasn't even a real break-up so how the hell does this hurt more??  Funny part is….. I caused it; I can’t blame anyone but myself because i walked right into it. I can’t even sleep, its waiting for me in my dreams, I can’t eat… I feel fat…..  and I lost, I knew I was going to lose, I always lose but this time I didn’t expect to feel like such a massive loser when it eventually happened. I wish I could go back in time (who doesn’t), I wish I never came here. It’s funny how a person can completely change your life without even knowing or caring.  I don’t know what to do….and I don’t know how to cope all I know is that I don’t want to feel this way… but as always, Story of my damn life

#now playing- ‘Impossible’ (Shontelle)

You were strong and I was not

My illusion, my mistake,

I was careless, I forgot

I did. And now

When all is done, there is nothing to say

 You have gone and so effortlessly

You have won

 You can go ahead and tell them

Tell them all I know now

Shout it from the rooftops

Write it on the skyline

All we had is gone now

Tell them I was happy

And my heart is broken

All my scars are open

Tell them what I hoped, would be

Impossible