A Lying DramaQueen

I'm not sure how i feel right now.
Numb? Yes
Shocked? Yes
Tearful? Very.......


       A rumor gets halfway around the world while the truth is still putting his shoes on.
Assuming i did all you heard i did?
Above all things, i'm you're friend. At least i thought i was. If the whole world had their backs turned against me, i certainly did not expect to see you there. Everyone makes mistakes.....so i can't be forgiven? i can't? really?


      But then again i told you i definitely did NOT do any of those.
and you didn't believe me.
I never lie to you, even when i should. I'd rather not say anything at all, than to lie to you.
     ''You're Lying'', you said.
     '' I don't believe you and you're lying''.
That was when the first tear fell.
     ''So many holes in your story''.
     ''You're not making sense''.
You wonder why i was silent?
You wonder why i choked on my words??
I cried.
Not because you were right, but because i could not believe that you of all people would throw those words at me. That you were so willing to think the worst of me.
I thought we were in a good place.
I thought we were stronger than that.
but thats just me... thinking wrong again.
If at all everything else went wrong between us, i thought we'd be friends till the end.
I thought i'd always be able to call on you in my darkest hours.. and that you'd answer.
Me and my stupid thoughts, the joke's on me.


  You said i bring drama to your life. 
wow.
   I am a drama-queen. I accept that, everyone knows that. but thats not the drama you meant.
Do you know?
      What i went through?
       What i still go through?
because of you???
because i loved you???
       No, you don't.
and you never will.
        Out of the abundance of the heart, the mouth speaketh.          
              You want me out of your life? i'll go. and i'll take my drama and lies with me.
Don't kick me out like some dog. i'll walk.
I'll walk far and fast and i won't stop till you're happy.
    I did learn a lesson from all this though. Never go after something you clearly were not meant to have.
This is an ode,
to a friendship that was doomed from inception. 
We were all too blind to notice.

iCall her Nosey :)

because i think her nose is very big.

This post is dedicated Soromtochukwu Nkemakolam Obioma Ibe!!!!

Also known as Somto, SomSom, NosyChukwu (for her humongous nostrils), Soromto Toronto…. I could go on…lol

Because, she is a really nice person. Looking at us now, you would never guess that 8 months ago, We didn’t know each other, yet now it feels like I’ve known her a lifetime.  I had a really good feeling about her, the first time I met her, I felt really comfortable. God knows she deserves an award for putting up with me and especially for being my friend. (Somto, now would be a good time to inform you that you’re going to be a bridesmaid at my wedding J)

                She put up with my crap, which is hard for even my family to do, the time I broke her window, the time I broke her door, the time I dismantled the chair she was SITTING ON, taking up all her oxygen, intruding in ALL her business , not letting her read for her tests, generally making her life miserable.

And I want to thank her for being my friend, for listening to me, for mocking my tears and then comforting me,  for not judging me, for singing me a lullaby in her cracked voice when I couldn’t sleep, for advising me even when sometimes she knew I wouldn’t heed the advice.  ( and Somto you can be very annoying too you know!!)

And even though she absolutely refuses to admit it, I know that she loves and misses me too *no homo* and cannot wait to see me.

I shall stop here before her already big head swells even bigger than it already is.

 she also likes to feel like a fine girl :)

*kisses*

GaGa

Bad to be single??

......sooo..i was chilling at home watching cartoons with my sister (you shud try watching cartoons sometimes,its relaxing)anyways,my fone rang and i looked at i.d. ...jojo....shes one of my classmates dat i was really gud wit in skul but we hadn't communicated once in the 3 months since graduation,so naturally i was excited,we yarned for a bit den she got down to the true nature of her call..

Jojo: vee,dyu remember dat pic we took on grad day

Me: yeah i do wat happened?

Jojo: and do you remember my cousin dat came back from america

Me: you mean Michael??
(at dis point i already know were dis is going)

Jojo: yeah err, i dunno how to say this

Me:he wants to go out on a date with me??

Jojo: yh and i gave him your number and i know you don't like it and im sorry

...........blah blah blah...iv alredy made the point i wanted to make
.....
.......>>>anyways the micheal did call,and for joans sake i gave him a chance but he ended up not being my kind of person


thats what my best friends call 'THE EXCUSE'.....because iv bin single for almost a year now and have turned down no less than 25 guys because they were 'not my type'

....wen i say not my type...i mean to say that their ideas are too different from mine to make any sense at all....

e.g...i met one guy at a party...for privacy's sake ill call him Tee. so anyways,he was the friend of a friend and we danced a bit and the whole ish,sha we got to talkn and he decided that the best way to woo me was to impress me with money talk......and so on and on he talks...bout his phones...and his cars(his fathers cars) and houses and all the counties hes traveled to and offering to buy anything i set my eyes on if it so pleased me...i politely excused myself and avoided him thru-out the party but through the mystical power of boys,he still managed to get my number and worse yet my address and the worst of all fact was that he lived in walking distance of my house...
..........
...........i wont bore you wiv d details sha but my friends almost ate me alive,dey ddnt want to understand how i cud pass up a cute rich guy dat wanted to spend all his time and money on me(deir words not myn)....
.........
..........

or another cute guy whom i shall call Em,he was only interested in my pretty face and how much he cud get from me..he was basically a sex-addict...everytym he called d first thing he wud ask me is 'what are you wearing'...i mean no 'hello' or 'how are you doin'....it was gross
..............
..........
.........
then der was Es (i know im not good at codenames lol)...he was such a pest,he tried the money method,it ddnt work den he began stalking me...he made my life a living hell....he showed up almost everywhere i went,called and textd me till i was scared of turning on my fone...he sent me huge amounts of credit daily and sent other gifts thru my friends....he was a pretty boy (one of those boys dat r so pretty dat yu wish dey wer girls)and my friends thought he was being cute wen i complained of his stalking but they only spoke lyk dat because they were gettn monetary benefits from Es to convince me to go out with him....i went thru dis for 5 and a half good months before i lost it on him wen he conveniently showed up at an outing i went for...then he reduced it but it still took him another month before he finally accepted dat nothing on earth would make me go out with him and dat was just this june...he still texts and calls but its lyk once in two weeks now....so im hoping the end is near..lol...THIS IS REAL..DNT THINK I MADE IT UP
.......
......
......
.....>>>My friend Ronnie thinks im hot-tempered because i dont have a boyfriend
.....>>Naomi thinks dat il feel better about being single if she tells me every detail bout her boyfriend and their numerous escapades
.....>>Kechi thinks i blog because i need a boyfriend (not that she has one..lol)


.......then recently a very good guy friend told me dat "people" said i liked playing 'hard to get' cuz im pretty....it upset me alot because i hate the words and because nobody ever sees things from my point of view.My friends say i have 'high standards' but i dont....
......
.....
...... MY TYPE OF GUYS are basically just simple guys dat can do simple things lyk make me smile,listens...etc...basically the same things as almost every other girl.
...
..they don't have to be cute because i have met ALOT of cute guys with no sense,im a teen,i have parents and im not looking for a husband just yet so i don't really care whether he/his father has money or not and he doesn't need to stalk me...
.....
....
....
.........its not my fault that i havnt met a nyc person yet,im single and im okay with it...if i meet a nyc person along the way then yay me but if not then im perfectly okay just the way i am....
/.....
/.....
....iv really written a lot more than i planned to,lol
....
...........
gotta go
see ya on the next post
...
.....::GaGa::......